Yesterday was the best day for me in these 4 days.
My feeling stabled a bit after working yesterday.
I was hoping that today will be like yesterday.
it turned down again today.
I get scolded with a loud voice in front of everyone.
The worst moment since I started my practicum.
When I was eating with my friend today,
I told her, 'I'm in alert all the time.'
I knew what are happening around me when I was walking.
Whoever passing by, whoever talking, I know.
I am totally in alert when I am in work.
I am in fear!
Fear of a lot of things.
I scare of don't know doing things.
I scare I doing things wrongly.
I scare I get scolded.
I scare of making mistakes.
I am living in fear.
I am trying to reduce my pressure.
But, I fail to.
Now, I quite admire on people who don't care much things.
Don't care of what people say.
Don't care of responsibilities in work.
Don't care of doing things wrongly.
Tomorrow is Friday,
the final day for first week of practicum life.