After a period of time

It’s been a long time I didn’t update my blog. I am coming now to update it again.

There are a lot of things happened this 2 months. I faced a lot of problems and I’ve learned a lot too. There’re a lot of things I would like to share here.

I have been staying in UUM for 3 and half months. I dislike the place! It’s totally horrible. I have been wasting a lot of my time there. A lot of people say that university time is much better than high school. We can know a lot of people in university; we can learn a lot of things there. But, the statement isn’t accurate on me. I just know a few friends. I don’t like to mix with the people there. The people there mostly can be divided into two categories. The first group is people who are studying most the time. I don’t really like to make friends with this group of people. Although they are right that they are fighting for their future, but I dislike the way. We should work for live, but they live for work. They are just hoping a secure job. It that the way of living in this world? Work up in the morning, go work, back from work, sleep and redo the thing all over again the second day. That’s should be called as life. Life shouldn’t be like that. I defined life as, “living happily by doing the things we like to fulfill our dream”.

What’s the meaning of study? Study is a process of learning to obtain knowledge. But, the definition has changed by people nowadays. It has become “a process to obtain a ‘ticket’ to get a job”. We can simple ask a people, “Why you want to study?” you would probably get the answer as “how are we going to live if we don’t have certificate?” So, is it a need for Oxford to change the definition of study in their dictionary?

“Living happily by doing the things we like to fulfill our dream.” People claim that we can’t do what we like without money. Is that so? Yes, it is but not all the time. When eastern people saying that they love music and hope to be an artist, their parents stop them with the reason that it’s impossible to succeed in that industry. That’s totally one of the lousiest excuses in the world. If it is impossible, then who are Jay Chou, Lee Hom, Andy Lau and Lin Yu Chong? They aren’t successful enough? Maybe people will say again that they are just one of million. Yes, they are one of million. They aren’t one of million who are lucky to succeed but one of million who dare to face it! It’s not the matter we can or we can’t, it’s the matter of we want or don’t want. Nothing is impossible if we have the passion and hard work. When people telling you that you can’t make it, they just don’t want you to make it because they can’t make it.

The second group of people I met in UUM is the “gaming” group. They play games most the time. If want to saying in good way, they know how to enjoy the time; in the bad way, they are wasting their time. I am not saying that we shouldn’t enjoy. Humans should relax and enjoy but just a certain level. If they are still in secondary school, it’s no wrong that enjoying. They have reached university, a big number of them still don’t know their ambition. When they are asked about their ambition, they might say that it is accountant for those who are studying accountancy. When they are asked deeper, what’s job for an accountant, they can’t give the correct answer. I really found myself at the end of form 5. I have felt that it’s very late, but, there are much people later than me.

Months ago, my first quote of life was “it’s not the matter you can or you can’t; it’s the matter that you want or don’t want.” But now, the quote has replaced with another quote, “action speaks louder than words”. Speak is easy but act is hard. There are lot people good in giving opinion and idea, me too, but the opinion or idea is unless it converted into action. People like to talk about their dream and their plans. I have a lot of friend of this type. They can give a lot of business idea, but they take no action. I have told myself, I have to act! Therefore I enter the share market, I started to make market survey, and I am looking for suppliers. I hope I can convert more word into action.

Sometimes, I ask myself, “am I doing the right thing?” I work hard for my future, I saved my money just for my investment, and I put no effort in academic. I feel suffering sometimes. Am I doing the right thing? I am really feeling doubt sometimes. I do hope that I could live like the “study” or “gaming” group but that will remain to trap me in the poverty the “rat gaming”. I have sacrificed a lot. I stopped playing games, I have no hobby.

However, my interest of seeing picture has expanded into capturing photo and editing picture. It might become my hobby after I don’t have any hobby since I seldom play football and badminton. Due to this interest, I wish I could have a digital camera. I have a plan to capture photo of every corner of Penang. At that moment, I was delighted when I read the newspaper few days ago. There was a Canon digital camera sales in Auto City. I invited my friend to go. It broke my dream when I saw the price is still so high. The cheapest camera costs me RM499. I decided to keep the money to make my next investment. Therefore, I couldn’t make capturing photo as my hobby and my plan to capture Penang’s photos have to be terminated. However, I can still make photo editing as my hobby. I started learning about photo editing and I have edited a picture. I hope this hobby can fill in my free time to make my life more interesting.

In these past few week which I don’t have hobby, I was spending my time in reading and watching movie. I have watched a lot of movies. The latest movie I have watched while I was writing this is Evan Almighty. It’s a great movie. At the end of the movie, I felt very glad until my tear was almost coming out. That was the moment I realize that why people can drop tear because of glad. Another good movie I watched was The Pursuit of Happiness. It was a real story about a investor. He went trough a lot of obstacle, he climbed up every time he failed.

Besides watching movie, I spent my time in reading. I found 1 good book to read. Its title is “Dare To Fail”. It’s a book that saying about failure of humans and how a human should face the failure. It’s a great book. It said about various kinds of failure.

Before I end, I wish to thank to my friends who have help me to get up from my moody in these few weeks. Thankyou!