Tittless again

I was arranging my things just now.

I saw a file which keeps the things of my English classes. I read back the essays I wrote. I am feeling missing of the classes. There is one essay I wrote about resolution of year 2006.

I wrote that I want to get bend 6 in my MUET and straight A in STPM. Well, it’s a tough goal, especially for me because I am so lazy in academic. The end, I got bend 4 in MUET and I did extremely well in STPM and got 4 As.

In year 2007, my main goal is to start investing. I thought I would start at the end of year, but I started it in March. My second main goal was to reveal some secret and I made it in April.

How about 2008?

I think I don’t have goal, and I don’t have any great achievement as well.

How about 2009?

I have lost my track now. I don’t know which is my track.

Well, there is another essay made me think a lot. The essay entitled ‘Know Thyself’. I wrote that the main strength I got is my enthusiasm. My enthusiasm made me a person who don’t give up easily. I always know what I was doing. I didn’t bother what people said which made me give up.
Look at me know. A huge different from the past!

uncontinuable

I have 2 more weeks before I back to my university. Time is really fast!

For those who are considering themselves as understand me well, they should know that there are several problems I am facing now. I am totally in dilemma. In this few months, my MSN messenger always display sentences such as, ‘how am I going to place my next move’ or ‘I am in junction now’. I am really worrying that my move will be a wrong move. I have made too much wrong moves.

Again, I actually have a lot of things I want to express, but there are too much and too complicated which made me don’t know how to express it. I would write it again when I know how to.

A Total Mess

I chatted with a good friend of mine 2 days ago. I was planning to sleep at 10.30p.m. but I ended up chatting with him until 1a.m. and another friend till 2 I think. Thereafter, I want to sleep, but a lot of things flight into my brain so sudden and I failed to sleep. I think I slept after 4.

Plenty of things flight into my brain until I was mentally suffered. I was thinking to find somebody to share my feeling, I took out my mobile phone to check who can I share my feeling that time. Don’t know why, I couldn’t find anybody. Not because they were sleeping, but I don’t know who can I share my feeling with. Previously, when I was down, I could easily get someone to chat with. But now, why couldn’t I find? Am I losing all my true friends? I don’t know.

Last time, a good friend of mine asked me to ask him whether he is still in track from time to time. Well, now he out of track. And me, I have lost my track!

Now, I am just fighting blindly for my future. I don’t really know where am I heading of each move I made. And, it seems like every moves of mine are getting me into more dilemmas. I enjoyed blogging last time. I actually wish I can write my blog as I wrote in the past. But, my life now is totally mess up, and don’t know how to express my feeling in words.

Fall Sick

I have fallen sick. Yesterday, after I came back from McDonalds with Eng Jeng, and after dinner, my family member ( I have forgotten who is that) told me that my face has some ‘bintik-bintik merah’. I went to mirror, and I saw it and I saw it happens to my hand as well. And I knew, I really need some rest.

Well, I really worried about health stuff. I am worrying about dengue and I checked some information about it. I hope this will be just a normal fever.

Well, my father did want to fetch me to clinic today, but I refused, because I don’t want to go public clinic. I seriously don’t trust the public clinic. A better way to say, I trust only Dr. Lee, or sometimes Dr. Cheah.

Recently, health issue has really turned into red light. The H1N1 virus is really horrible. I hope it will over soon.

I am not the only person who sick in my family. My brother was sick 3 weeks ago, and my father was sick too last week.

All my friends, hope you all will be strong and don’t get fall into any sick. Take care.

Injection

Today is my last injection for Hepatitis B.

I phoned the clinic at the morning, and the staff told me that Dr. Lee didn't on duty today. I felt a little bit disappointed. But nevermind, i went for Dr. Cheah.


I went at about 2p.m.

My dad fetch me there.

After I was injected, my hand kind of very 'sour'. Now, it's still 'sour'. I hope it will be nothing tomorrow.