UUM life is lonely

I am still sick. I am coughing everyday.

Recently, I experience several things and I realized several things as well. My thinking has change one part of it.

Last week was add/drop week, we are allowed to change your time table. There are 2 subjects I would like to change, financial management and managerial accounting. I finally didn’t change financial management because I believe there is possible for me to handle myself. But for managerial accounting, I didn’t change is because I like the lecturer very much. There are 6 teachers/lecturers that I think is good in my life. And now, I think that lecturer might be able to be the 7^th. Unfortunately, thing has changed, our class has been separated back to 2 groups. The previous teacher is teaching the other group. That’s bad. Fire has burnt inside my heart. Among the subjects I take this semester, managerial accounting is the subject I am feeling exciting. But now, the lecturer has been replaced, my excitement has gone.

I am getting hate UUM. If people ask me to rate, I would rate it 0.5/10.

University life isn’t as what I thought last time. I thought I could able to find few great friends over here, but I could say I only found 1. I could able to say, I have only 2 buddy here. The first is known in previous school and one I know here. Compare to Penang, I have my good friends and my god-sisters.

Every times I come back UUM after back to Penang, one feeling will occurred in me. I will feel like I am lonely. Although there are lot people around me, but I feel like there is only me there.

In UUM now, I prefer the schooling day. I hate to be in my room. I am really lonely there. Sending sms is the best way for me to make myself out of lonely. Those 2 buddies and other few friends that I would like to talk to, are live far from my hostel. I find nobody that I really can talk to within my hostel.

Although I do find some people to talk with, but, I am still feeling lonely.

I would say, I no need thousand of friends beside me, I just need one of my buddy beside me, that’s totally more than enough. Even my buddy isn’t talking to me, I will still feel I am not alone.

A long journey back to Penang

I was back from UUM yesterday. It was a long journey! It took me about 6 hours!

I finished my class at 2. I didn’t go back yet because I want to wait for Boon Yan. I left my room at about 3. I walked toward DKG by the A route. I didn’t want to go by the chancellery because I was wearing casual, I am not sure I can pass trough there or not. On the way, Boon Yan messaged me and told me he was going there. His class ended earlier. Seem he was earlier than what we had planned, I changed my plan to take bus. I took bus at Proton College.

There were a lot people was waiting for the bus too. I was wondering whether we would able to get aboard the bus. Luckily, there was a Unic bus that wanted to fetch us to Sahap. We got aboard it. It was faster than Mara Liner. It took only 1 hour.

At the Sahap bus terminal, I felt hungry. I bought bread and planned to eat after I reached home. I switch off my phone due to low battery.

The bus departed from Sahap. My hometown was getting nearer.

We reached Butterworth at 6.40p.m.

We got aboard the ferry. When it was about to reach, I guess it’s within few hundred meter. The ferry became very slow (or maybe stopped). And, we thought it probably had broken down. We took the ferry at about 6.50p.m. and we reached at 7.30p.m. It was about 40 minutes!

When I reached the bus terminal, I phoned to my dad to ask which bus to take. I had forgotten which bus to take. After I knew, I was looking for the bus.

Finally, I reached home at about 9 o’clock. A 6 hours journey! I think I will remember this journey!

Back to UUM!

Last Friday, my friend and I went back to UUM. The bus departed at about 1.30p.m.

After I reached UUM, I went to check in my room. As I knew earlier, my roommate for this semester is Aaron. He is a good guy. Well, I didn’t clean up my room that day. I didn’t have the mood to clean up. After I put all my things in my room, I went to walk around. I don’t know why, I have a strange feeling. I was feeling lonely, I don’t like here very much. How good it is if I am able to study in private. But now, nothing is going to change, I have to work hard to get my success!

The co-curriculum started at the second day. After an attended it, there is just a word I can say, “Lousy”. I don’t know why UUM want to make co-curriculum as compulsory, others university doesn’t make it as compulsory. I feel that it is totally a waste of time.

Yesterday was my first day to my class. My first class is actually business law, but the lecturer who entered our class is the lecturer of the lecturer of ‘law of tort’. At the beginning, we don’t know that the lecturer entered the wrong class. After half an hour, the lecturer finally knew that her time table was wrong. It was quite funny.

Last night, I still had class. I was not very sure where my class is. Therefore, I left my room 1 hour earlier. I afraid that I couldn’t find it as what had happened in the morning, I lost! When I reached there, the whole building is totally quite, it’s quite scary. After I was looking for a while, I still couldn’t find it. I found someone to ask and I found it. I was the first person reached there, I was feeling a bit scaring along there. They say that the area is the place that contains the most ‘those thing’.

The class is really boring. After I finished the class, I walked back again. I spend more than 2 hours in walking to class and back from class today.

Last Friday, my friend and I went back to UUM. The bus departed at about 1.30p.m.

After I reached UUM, I went to check in my room. As I knew earlier, my roommate for this semester is Aaron. He is a good guy. Well, I didn’t clean up my room that day. I didn’t have the mood to clean up. After I put all my things in my room, I went to walk around. I don’t know why, I have a strange feeling. I was feeling lonely, I don’t like here very much. How good it is if I am able to study in private. But now, nothing is going to change, I have to work hard to get my success!

The co-curriculum started at the second day. After an attended it, there is just a word I can say, “Lousy”. I don’t know why UUM want to make co-curriculum as compulsory, others university doesn’t make it as compulsory. I feel that it is totally a waste of time.

Yesterday was my first day to my class. My first class is actually business law, but the lecturer who entered our class is the lecturer of the lecturer of ‘law of tort’. At the beginning, we don’t know that the lecturer entered the wrong class. After half an hour, the lecturer finally knew that her time table was wrong. It was quite funny.

Last night, I still had class. I was not very sure where my class is. Therefore, I left my room 1 hour earlier. I afraid that I couldn’t find it as what had happened in the morning, I lost! When I reached there, the whole building is totally quite, it’s quite scary. After I was looking for a while, I still couldn’t find it. I found someone to ask and I found it. I was the first person reached there, I was feeling a bit scaring along there. They say that the area is the place that contains the most ‘those thing’.

The class is really boring. After I finished the class, I walked back again. I spend more than 2 hours in walking to class and back from class today.

Good bye 2007! Welcome 2008!

Year 2007 is over, it’s 2008 now! A whole new year!

Year 2007 left a lot of memories for me. A lot of important things happened. However, I don’t really happy in year 2007. I struggled a lot, especially in the end of the year. Let’s review a bit of my 2007.

At the first half of the year, it still can be considered as a good year. There were a lot of good things happened. I had 3 main hope for year 2007, and 2 hopes have become true by April fool ended. But, my third goal couldn’t achieve till the end of 2007.

There were a lot big things happened.

On March, I had successfully entered share market. Starting, I partner with a friend and invest. Thereafter, I had my own CDS account. I am a share investor! That’s my dream! I had stepped a step forward toward my dream. I have learnt a lot during my research.

Another big happy thing is, I got 4As (out of 4, 2 are A-) for my STPM result. It was my greatest achievement in my education path. My results seemed not good in the past. I got 3 As for my UPSR, 4As for my PMR and only 2 As for my SPM. I was definitely surprise when I got my result. I couldn’t forget the day I received my result. There are two persons that I really have to thanks to. They have motivated me! Without them, I believe I will only get single A. But, they might don’t realize they have helped me such much. Although I felt great about myself, I felt lonely as well. Why did I say so? Firstly, I had no chance to celebrate with my best friend. Secondly, I was trying to avoid from people. I don’t them to congratulate me. I left my school after finished taking some pictures from reporters and little interviews. I didn’t want to remain there. If I remained there and talking to friends, telling my results to them, it’s such like trying to showing off.

I entered UUM this year, I am now feeling regretting. It’s better for me to take the course available in USM. UUM is such a obstacle for me to succeed in my life.

However, around the time I almost left Penang, there was a group of my friends celebrated a farewell for me. I was late to be there, I shouldn’t be late, they are good to me. After that day, I told myself, “I actually have friends.” In my whole life, I rarely have any celebration of mine with friends. Even I did, it’s just going outside, has some foods. They are really good.

In the second half of year 2007, it’s really a tough year, I was struggling in my financial problems. Up till now, I haven’t really solved it. And it forced me to break a very important promise! I might regret in future of that decision, but I had no choice.

Year 2007 is the year I suffered the most ever and also the year I experienced the most! I hope I will have a better and interesting year in 2008.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!